One of my japanese pen-pals, with whom I've been exchanging photos, didn't write me messages for a long time. I become anxious, and asked her, is she alright? She had answered this morning, that she have no "energy" to talk with me, after her grandmother died. I feel disheartened, because I don't like to take photos, but did my best to take beautyful photos especially for her. I has hope, that she will become my good friend, but, as she stopped write me as soon as I become uninteresting for her, and don't want to receive condolences from me, I understood, that I wasn't special for her, just faceless guy from web.