Negative feelings

One of my japanese pen-pals, with whom I've been exchanging photos, didn't write me messages for a long time. I become anxious, and asked her, is she alright? She had answered this morning, that she have no "energy" to talk with me, after her grandmother died. I feel disheartened, because I don't like to take photos, but did my best to take beautyful photos especially for her. I has hope, that she will become my good friend, but, as she stopped write me as soon as I become uninteresting for her, and don't want to receive condolences from me, I understood, that I wasn't special for her, just faceless guy from web.

One of my Japanese pen pals, with whom I've been exchanging photos, didn't write me messages for a long time. I became anxious and wrote to her asking if she was alright? She answered this morning saying she has no energy to talk with me after her grandmother died. I feel disheartened as I don't like to take photos, but I did my best to take beautiful photos, especially for her. I had hoped that she would become a good friend, but she has stopped writing me. She no longer finds me interesting and won't accept condolences from me. I now understand that I wasn't special to her, just a faceless guy from the web.